So this morning I woke up with the alarm and got myself out of bed at 6:30, even though I could've stayed in bed a bit longer. I wanted to get up and get to the gym with enough time for an hour-long workout.
Well, it took us freakin' forever to get out of the house. Taylor took forever, and we actually left him and drove up the street a bit before going back and picking him up, by which point he was crying and upset that we almost "left" him. I was also a little annoyed with Bob, quite frankly, because he made himself a breakfast, and I felt like it added to our delay getting out of the house. I always take my breakfast (a banana) on the run to speed up our departure.
So we (finally!) made it to the gym, and I was totally worked up by this point, because I was sure I only had 15 minutes to workout. I busted through a t-bar set of 3 with 8 reps with 125 lbs. Then I did 15 pushups and 20 jackknives on the stability ball. At that point I called it quits in order to make a meeting. As I was getting ready to hit the shower, though, I realized I was off in my timing, and I actually had another 15 minutes for which I could have worked out! So I could have done a solid 30 minute workout had I not been SO STRESSED OUT.
At that point I was really tempted to find a way to blame Bob for everything. Seriously. I really, really wanted to blame someone else for this horrible thing that had happened.
And then I took a deep breath and acknowledged that I had no one to blame but myself.
I screwed up. I was so freaked out about the time and having enough time to workout, that I completely screwed myself over and rushed through something that could have been so much more enjoyable and rewarding. It was only 15 minutes, but it would have made a good difference, and, more importantly, it was more about my frame of mind than anything else.
So my little lesson for today is to slow down.
Try hard to relax, to stop stressing out, to enjoy life and not overthink everything.
If I had just been kinder to everyone around me, including myself, it would have made all the difference.